My Life's Ingredients

That’s far for me … and feeling ok. No bleeding or anything else, and so far I have no real morning sickness either – maybe a bit nausea sometimes, and my taste buds decide after 1 cheese toast when nibbling on No 2 that I suddenly don’t like Emmental Cheese anymore! One of my favs!!! Seen the Doc today as the midwife measured higher blood pressure last week and although she wasn’t worried she thought better to check with the GP. Baby brain here totally forgot to check for the MRI results, so currently waiting for a call back from Dr Ewing. Been to the gym and will speak to Stewart (one of my instructors) on Friday because I am not sure my core stability workouts are working (30 secs max for me to hold the plank and the bridge with bosu!). Upper body strength? Non-existent as it seems! Had actually planned to scrap today – but somehow I’ve lost my Mojo a couple of months ago. Not sure if that’s because I’m soooo tired (and Dr Ewing said that being tired and not sleeping well is

… and that’s on all crafty levels … I haven’t done much scrapbooking/card making/knitting/crochet or quilting over the last couple of months. Somehow just not feeling like it. But I’m planning to do something crafty this weekend… So, there you have it!!   Can’t say WHICH craft it will be mind…

No emotional TV allowed for me I think – been watching “Don’t tell the Bride” earlier and nearly was in puddles!!! WEIRDO!!! Not sure what that is about. Else doing ok, bit headachey, and felt a bit nauseous this morning, so who knows, maybe morning sickness comes late for me. Although … I really could do without that. Got order to get some German baking today, so will see what the girls have on offer later. Oh … and it’s QVC Craft day, so getting maybe my Mojo back that way. Who knows.

The whole IVF stuff is surreal as it is, but after a positive result it’s just weird! During the cycle you go to the clinic about twice a week for bloods and scans – then the 2WW (2 week wait) is bad enough, as you don’t have ANY contact with the clinic. Zilch, Nada! You go back for the blood test, phone in for the result during lunch and then get your result … in our case it was mostly negatives, one low number positive (which then went up and resulted in an m/c in 2007 at week 6 (?) ). This time of course huge number (pointing towards twins) – and then you’re on your own. Feels weird, actually, I felt quite lost! 5 blinking weeks to cover time before you go in for a scan!!! Time enough to drive desperate people mental, really!! Think if I’d at least more “signs” (only had headaches and the telltale “chest” signs) I wouldn’t have been that bad … but with NO morning sickness I felt something was missing!! Well… scan was the same day as my first day back at work… so we went ther

That’s a scary thought … back to work tomorrow … with a quick trip to ERI in the morning. Well… let’s say it that way, I wasn’t really told before Christmas whether my contract is being extended, I was just told to “just turn up on the 5th”.  Sounds very familiar to me really. But I don’t think that my contract WON’T be extended (and I know several colleagues will go ballistic if I won’t be back as I’ve reduced their work load by quite a bit … and that’s over 5 different teams). Wish I had a bit more time at home as I’m feeling totally knackered and as if I didn’t get enough sleep over the holidays … let’s hope that all’s getting better soon. Reminds me, I have to check with my GP if there’s an update on my MRI yet (for the headaches)…